Estranged

In response to:Rotating Fish

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 21:53:26 +0200

While you are stewing your Mother, pop in a bayleaf, it will make her into a much tenderer (is that a word) human being, or at least easier to chew.

In response to:Rotating Fish

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 21:53:21 +0200

Dammit I meant much easier to digest. Damn this medication. Horace - where did you put the bong?

In response to:Rotating Fish

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 21:52:57 +0200

While you are stewing your Mother, pop in a bayleaf, it will make her into a much tenderer (is that a word) human being, or at least easier to chew.

In response to:Too Silly

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 22:23:05 +0200

I love you. Please be my friend.

I especially love this "with all due respect, the right honourable gentleman is an inbreed fuckwit and wouldn't know his arse from his elbow!?'"

When you are in power, can I be in your cabinet please?

In response to:Silence is golden(?)

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 21:46:09 +0200

I don't think we set any new records, Shortstuff decided she was bored of not talking to me after a couple of days. I could have gone a day or two more without being reminded almost daily that we've yet to get married lol

In response to:The simply entitled: Question post

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 20:21:58 +0200

It would seem my readers are lurkers! The stats say people actually read my drivel for whatever distraction it provides but no one has thus far ventured forth to publicly reveal an opinion!

Damnit! If this had proven though-provoking or titillating in any degree I was all poised to follow up with the equally prophetic Pink or Brown quiz next :P

In response to:Silence is golden(?)

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 09:09:58 +0200

I hate not talking and ignoring... it does my head in.

Be a mature man (if there is such a thing ;) ) and bloody talk to her.

My hubby's just the same!!! grrrrr... I find it so immature!!!! grrrrr... its a pet hate of mine!!

Its always me that talks first in our house, but do you know what I don't give a shit!! I just find the whole ignoring each other thing a waste, if you've got something to say... say it... then make up.

In response to:The Ex-Factor

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 16:05:49 +0200

That you have blogged at length about it makes me think you do wish you had spoken to her. these things happen.
as for shortstuff, she is just being typically female. women cant help but compare themselves. They always built up images that are nothing to do with reality into their own heads. she needs to let it go, afterall you might just react the same way with one of her exs

Deciever got a shock when he saw me a few weeks ago. I was very much in control, a couple of his exs were there, they didn't affect me but he bombarded me with phone calls and texts after. Im still letting him hang. it's fun;)

In response to:Who am I trying to kid?

Mon, 21 May 2007 17:36:14 +0200

have the demons abated yet?

In response to:Who am I trying to kid?

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:36:35 +0100

you sound cuckoo to me!!!

I know what you mean about two of you...

what are you congitive behaviours? tell me. I'm interested.

You know trying to keep a lid on things is going to make things worse don't you? x

In response to:Creeping doubt.

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 14:17:38 +0100

you sound very upbeat, posive and definitely strong. I have watched your progress as well. this sounds like somone very much intouch with himself. be proud;)

In response to:Creeping doubt.

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 00:21:28 +0100

In response to:Is there such a thing as an Introverted Extrovert?

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 02:42:29 +0100

At moment I haven't got a perfect day... alone in bed, wollowing in self pity sounds good... probably says a lot about my present mood!

Introverted extrovert... emmm... depends what mood I'm in!

In response to:Horrible

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 02:35:40 +0100

Everyone thinks I'm really laid back...if only they were inside my head!

BTW Do you EVER reply to your comments?!

In response to:title-222433

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 02:11:05 +0100

wow... thats nearly me!

I'd go black!

So Its over a year since your first post... have things changed for you?

xBrownEyes x

In response to:Odd moods

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 02:05:27 +0100

Defiantly think you over analysed the door thing.

I always hold the door open for others, male or female, just cause I think its good manners.

I also seem to need a lot of me time. I prefer my company to anyone else’s… except for Princess - my daughter... even then sometimes I don't feel I can always cope. I still need to be with just me... I'm rambling aren't I?! That sounds dreadful - I can't always cope with my daughters company.

In response to:Beyond words.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 01:54:42 +0100

I know what you mean with the not knowing what exactly the emotion is... I only seem to do extremes!

I also seem to go into some kind of shut down when I’m really stressed.

In response to:30

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 16:34:08 +0100

I actually managed to surprise myself on day 7 when I remembered that for some thoroughly inexplicable reason I had a cigar from many many years ago stowed in my toolbox.

Tollbox? Cigar? Meh, sometimes its best not to question these things, I don't!

And then, resisted all day until Shortstuff was home and then decided to open it and proceeded to break and scrunch it into tiny l'il pieces on its way to the bin. If I had just thrown it or snapped it in half it would have been recoverable (I have salvaged my own dog ends in the dire fits of cravings before now *ugh, I know*).

Dunno, quite how I did that but today (day 10) has so far proved infinitly better than the edge weekend.

Onwards and upwards!

In response to:30

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 00:06:41 +0100

Forgot to say, that was twenty five years ago, and I am so £"!$%^ healthy nobody here knows I am 57...

In response to:30

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 00:04:18 +0100

Nine days without smoking? You have won. When I got to three days, I won by saying "No thanks, I don't smoke" when offered one. You have won. Don't ever let them fool you again, the bastards!

In response to:Tempting, actually.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 19:27:02 +0100

just remeber it's the sperm that decides the sex of the baby so you can't make her have a third if you are still going to shoot the "x" and not "Y" factor/chromosomes.:yes:
Unless she has had some kind of problems with her reproductive problem, getting off the pill almost guranteeds immediate pregnancy, so that potential extra income shall come in handy. sounds like you habndled your boss exactly the way we all should when bargaining. well done!

In response to:Fuming.

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 23:35:17 +0100

Thanks for the pointers - the work load angle might come in handy (although I very much doubt he'll appear any less the twat no matter the outcome!)

The CV has already been dusted off and given a polish :P

In response to:Fuming.

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 03:59:27 +0100

Ask your boss for a 1:1 to discuss what will happen when your colleagues leave and how this will affect the work load and your working relationship with the boss. i.e what does he want and what do you want from him as a manager. You may well frighten the shit out of him and he'll respect you more, or he may just find out you're a reasonable and dedicated employee (!!) If you think its going well and know that your work load will increase, ask him if there is any consideration to raising your salary. If he needs to consider, advise you'll be happy to show him how you cope and discuss again in 6 weeks?

If he's still a twat after this meeting, you will know it's not going to change, so smarten and update your CV, join some agencies and start looking for another job. This is what a 30 year old will do if you want to stay the office junior continue as you are.

Best of luck

In response to:Beyond words.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 16:22:13 +0200

I think your rediuced need is someting a lot of people here go thru at different points. we start off having to vent or let off some steam, then we settle in and eventually we think,"i have nothing to write about" but the need never goes away completely which is why you continue. just do what you feel like, when you feel like it!

In response to:They laughed (Thank fluff for that!)

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:12:59 +0200

sounds fantastic. you were sweating over nothing. interesting: ex and her eyes!:))what did you do to the poor girl:)

In response to:They laughed (Thank fluff for that!)

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:25:26 +0200

Great blog, loved the "fuck me purple" thing and the bit about the ex, I know that feeling as a woman all too well i can assure you!!!!

In response to:Doing the rounds

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 21:35:18 +0200

Ermmm... When I've had a few I have been known to start flinging my arms above my head at a nightclub or (*gulp* and *cringe*) invade a stage... But that was quite a few years ago. Nowadays, I think I'd just look like a pratt!

In response to:Doing the rounds

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 14:02:53 +0200

can you dance? yes or no mister. i think that was a very diplomatic answer:))

In response to:Flying Solo

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:39:28 +0200

well done for stopping the sessions. it means you are far better now than when you first went in, which is the whole point of going in in the first place. ive stopped therapy in the past, because i wasn't getting what i needed(hwtever that was0 but the time spet there had been good. the only thing you can do is cope and try to maintain control over your issues. knowing what they are is half the battle won;)

In response to:Flying Solo

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 21:58:40 +0200

I'm already wondering if it was a good idea after all!

I was going to say "here's to hoping I don't retreat into my own dark world", but that said I dont think I've ever entirely stepped out of it - more poked my head out occasionally and said a few things!

I think perhaps I had a notion then half made a decision, then said it and over the next few days and weeks I'll realise exactly what it means. There's still so much unsaid, so much that pops-up and gnaws at me but now, maybe even if its only for a few months, I'm going to wing it.

I wonder if anyone will ever ask me again how I am and not just settle for a blunt "fine..."?

I better stop thinking about it else I'll get scared lol

Ringmaster - "Ladies and gentlemen I give you Ksan! He will now attempto to leap the wide expansive chasm of the dark impregnable mind without a safety net. Hurrah!!!"

Audience - "Muppet."

Ksan - "To infinity and beyoooooooooo" *Splat*